Outrageous Oral, Volume 1: Monica Greene

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this I have a horrible acts and sell transcripts so this are available on my

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website

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I'm cantana I stroll with this I actually didn't want to do it

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and then I thought about it then I am my family decided that I was going to do it

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and I was for anyone who knows me I can talk forever

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and I have some great stories in great experiences but on

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about two in the morning last night a walk-up not hot

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known I really need to give the perspective a different perspective

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I want to leave something behind I

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not want to talk about what i'd on here in the community business-wise

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which has been very benign this city to me but i wanna talk about that

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the roots depressed where I came from

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about who I am today so I'm gonna read it to you

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I didn't sleep much last night i cant riding in writing

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not finally end up with this page is here there has always been a don t

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impression on my soul to search for life

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a used to doing a landscaping my solo repertoire was include making a choice

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is a reality

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many years ago I was 30,000 feet about the ocean hitting

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East or Europe rehearsing heavily my life when I thought at that time had

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been a fantasy

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created by nature a big mistake we have left hours late in the afternoon chase

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in darkness

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despite being happy with my destination in my choices

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my restrictive environment score and regardless of all the people around me

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I feel very lonely drama in my mind

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on hold it memorize another time I feel manhood

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became very important every detail

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was pursued but the rest the passengers rested on a where my complex in my

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whistle

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guilt and all that fear finally for the first time in my life were no longer

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present

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they tonight merge into one a purple sky

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hint to the Starz arrival it was getting late

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a look at the window and I saw those first are smiling at me

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the moon directly hit was leading the way become to my destiny I thought

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and so I made a wish under need

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an all-around eminently pure snow white tundra sup this feather

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pillars silent witness to a silver bird

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harboring inside hundred souls

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some mail some female one boat

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on on to me in on that date the strip signaled the beginning

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up an extraordinary adventure in Texas for these would be transexual

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so now it's back to reality our Dallas

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in my to my new life as a female I hadn't

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reincarnation and the same lifetime I have been a song

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a brother husband a father I am now sister

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and a girlfriend but I have always been a person

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the same person some things they changed our

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I went from being a short meant to be not all women go figure but not in my

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transition never the change the way I Drive

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the way I speak other way think other than bringing my physical reality

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in line with my men to reality there was not much different at all

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maybe a little bit more lipstick you know boobs

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then and then I guess there were places to live when you decide to go to sex

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reassignment

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but I can tell you by experience they can not be a better place to become your

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cell then in Dallas

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dollars has been good to me texas has been good to me

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and people like you I did to me but

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in 1995 when I came back from Brussels

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where I have my sex was reassignment surgery dollars was a very different

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place

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did you know that I was not online

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allowed to enter this bar for the village station or any other bar in the

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strip

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well I was dressed up as a female in 1995

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he was against the law to impersonate a female do in that time

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and every business owner happily comply with that on furlough

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good drinks strobe lights

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good music well did Kelly pretty could never make the word discrimination sound

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right

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he'd always senior my spirit he has always been a red banner to about costs

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reaping forever Bulleen and misunderstanding

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but my story began long ago way before I write to this lamp

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early since I can remember I appear computers

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I remember the ones that I once read that a little boy

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discover the he was a little girl while he was listening to his mother play the

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piano

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listen to shop on well I didn't have to see

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on to need a camera to know who I was

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ever since I remember I felt that I was born in the wrong body

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I think I was four years old when it down on daily drama began

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sex difference to me were created at best I knew that there were boys and

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girls

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but that did not explain my existence during my chocolate

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I never talk anyone about my confusion the private pain was very silent

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kantor to me in a struggle to create a normal child

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locked into any he became effortless

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after a while to like my role and just like in a fairytale

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turning 20 min a master storyteller to family and friends

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but beyond the surface in tonight I was myself

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do in those nights gonna they're to dress up my case was always looking to

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the future

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it online with destiny Houston be shown people recognize me

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for who I was womanhood embrace with a catastrophe percent the door

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would up hurting my loved ones I can ever remember being

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someone else you're my teams always seem to carry a slow grief

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and I hate suppressants foreshadows but in my dreams I saw my face with ice

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decided to at this time reality

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with that from her distinctive expressions in a simple smile on my face

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sub skin with a golden song outside waiting for me to come out

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to go further into my destiny when the doing final it came true

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I had to face society I never forget that day

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from I have to admit to you that I'm not always had

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the carriage to be who I was why I am

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when I let my bisous my family my friends and everything

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I was accustomed to and I have to pursue womanhood

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I skate 2 for war I hit

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until that fateful day hours away

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safe I thought despite the fact that I did not have a driver's license

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a social security card or any identification that actually the funk y

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los

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I managed to find a job he had been four months since I left Dallas looking for a

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new reality

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working at a bank was not what I intended always been in the restaurant

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business

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I think you know nevertheless the bank gave me an opportunity to participate in

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life

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a new experience in no one knew about my pass

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or so I thought known lever funny

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I try to convince myself and I was wrong

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the call came early in the afternoon the surprise me

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in like a cold shower he may miss real it was hell in brine

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a writer for The Dallas Morning News her voice was pragmatic

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almost warm with our skis in herself for interrupting my privacy

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and moneyline she told me that she was going to write about me and my

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transition

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in her column a bear her to please forget me

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a talker the corrections go to take my job at the bank

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I told her to pay my kids will endure when the true would come out

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really would be make make their lives typical school

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I try to be practical I picked

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it didn't work and so I cry you know they all same

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there is nothing to fear but fear itself well

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that is a fact like a vessel I was launched by that Pam

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I was no longer running when do in the city the truth Kristen

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I was moving forward people stumbling about pieces so my fate

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and the war in the world was about to see me on bail

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and finally dollars would catch a glimpse of the real me

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now was a leaping moment transformation a forever change

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lucky for me sigh step in our society

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and the common library relations was really not very hard for me

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our world was already awash in controversy even before my announcement

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so this by the early shock nothing really bad happened to me

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my family and the world did not come to an end

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Holmes finished us

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my story is long good im back

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too many equal parts oppressions nissen ugliness too many more

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mostly clever they all agree like a to rate with music in a good ending

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but police nothin I'm only one Boyce not a unique voice

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but a boy's the sings the same team that thousands a boy so transsexuals not able

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to raise our voice to share their experiences

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I thank you for your time tonight and I like to finish my lower time for reading

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you watch or ponder over last night

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some anyway here this bitch black

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finally conquer operon escorted to the inner space by the filtering liked

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pulsating the partly to the naked when Ortiz settles

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into a long female and you can a woman

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she stand single strong ports a dissonant

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on named Kurt and recognize the such her face

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a complex plan the ties to her past still visible

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and shake but like Twilight silently fading away

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Hublot Amiri a to battle for months pump in her soul

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cheese Mexican she's not alone she speaks in a common-law boys

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should begin sent you she has a new name and your comment money

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thank you